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AllyCat13_2
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Name: Alex
Location: Tennessee, United States
Gender: Female
Interests: MUSIC, Acting, Writting, Singing, Video games, Hanging with my friends, ANYTHING tech
Expertise: piano, photography, tech work and I guess you could say acting.
Occupation: Zoo Keeper.
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Member Since:
11/17/2004
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| You ever have those days where everything seems normal but the world around you is completely upsidedown and you're fully aware? Yeah. It's ok if you haven't. It's just some stupid opening to some stupid book. Nothing more. Nothing less. It's just one of those nights where I'm uncomfortable in my own skin. The worlds best bed would not bring the comfort I would need to welcome sleep right now. Only an out of body experience or a renewal ritual would help me right now. I'm just laying here, waiting for my drugs to set in. Just waiting for the sweet release of mind and spirit. Forced as it may be, this rest may just be what I need. Tomorrow I will be able to tell, for tomorrow will tell all.
Really, it's like sitting in the back of a rollercoaster. Not strapped in and not phased by the bumps and turns. Everything around you would scare any normal person, but you're too lost in yourself to notice. You're set on automati. just doing as you're told, but not even noticing that the world is still turning. Not lost in though, per se, but lost in yourself. You hold the key, but you have absolutely no desire to turn the knob. The world is what it is. ...And you want no part. | | |
| "I was a giant leprechaun and I was all like ^.^ cause I found a tiny pot of gold. Until I looked in it and was it was just lucky charms then I was like >:D and I sat down and munched on lucky charms. :)" | | |
| I'm tired of keeping them saved on my phone.
Once upon a time there was a young boy who lived in a small quiet village. Too quiet for the boy. He wanted adventure. So he set off with a makeshift sword he fashioned from an old plow blade. He roamed the country side looking for adventure which came upon him in the form of a paid of bandits. They jumped out and attacked the boy!
"Aha!" said the boy, "a challenge at last!" with a ferocious roar he leapt at his foes! What will happen next? Stay tuned to find out! Next time on Quest of the Brave!
So, last time, before we left, the boy was attacked by a pair of bandits....
The boy flung himself at his enemies, attacking the bigger of the two first. Swinging his dull makeshift sword wildly, he struck the large bandit in the ribs, sending him to the ground. The smaller bandit was dumb founded. His knife nearly fell from his hand but he shook himself to his senses and made several swipes at the boy, none of which connected because of the boy's ferocious swinging. Little did the boy know that the larger bandit had risen. He came behind the boy and seized him. The boy struggled but couldn't get loose...
Was this the end for the boy?! Find out out next time on brave tale! | | |
| I'm sitting on the wall between Reality and Wonderland, watching the clouds go by without a thought other than "what now?"
"What now?" I ask myself, "What in hell do I do now? I really haven't a thing going for me, the people I love are few and far between and there is nothing really left to fight for."
The clouds pass by over head, making shapes that only your imagination can see.
Behind me, there's the world where nothing can touch me. The world where nothing changes drastically, nothing ever turns against you, and nothing will ever be too much to handle. Behind me is my Wonderland. The one place where I'm allowed to loose myself in my own thoughts. Where I'm allowed to think freely, feel emotion, and actually exist without people telling me what to do and how to live my own life. Wonderland is more than just a thought pattern, it's an escape. Do I dare take this path once again? The one, obviously, more traveled in my past.
In front of me, there is a cruel world where nothing ever holds back. "Harsh reality" was aptly named after this world that I so indefinitely face. Cold, hard Reality stares me down with beady eyes that sear into my soul. I try to look away, but it grabs me and makes me look it in the face. Tears stream down my cheeks as I have a morbid sense of awareness seep into my conscience.
I know the answer to the question that so frequently haunts me. I can't run anymore. As much as I would love to fall backwards into the world where no harm can be done, I know that I must go forward and help the ones that I love, no matter how few and far between they may be.
I visit my Wonderland once more to say a quick farewell. The temptation hits me; this is my chance to run. I can be free from responsibility. I can see the light through the woods on the other end. I look back to the gray sky over Reality just long enough to realize that clouds seem to be chasing me. The further I walk into the woods, the darker it gets. I can no longer see the glass wall that separates one world from another. The trees engulf my eyesight to where I no longer see the light on the other end.
"You've gone too far! Go back while you can!" my conscience tries it's best to fight, "Stop being selfish! There's still some hope!"
I don't see the hope that it's trying to instill into my mind. "It's not being selfish, it's self defense," I utter to myself as I start to run faster. The words "Stop being selfish" echo in my head until I end up falling on the ground. I stay there for a bit, weeping to myself as I try to catch my composure. "It's self defense!" I scream at the top of my lungs to the world that I had, for a moment, believed could hear my cries.
I take a deep breath in and follow the clouds back to Reality where they believe that I belong. The world beckons me, no matter how hard I try not to listen. I reluctantly go back to my little glass wall, where I am destined to forever sit.
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